Turn the page...

Originally posted on MySpace

01-30-2006

With the ending of Metallica's version of 'Turn The Page', I finished my last set, of my last scheduled night dancing, tonight. I'll miss the dancing more than anything else. The way it feels to really feel the music that's playing and somehow become so lost in it, that you practically forget there's anyone else in the room. I'll also miss the almost suspended animation of hanging upside down from the pole. I've rarely felt any more peace than I do as I hang there, above everything else, by nothing more than one leg, for as long as the muscles in it will allow. Perhaps that's the closest I'll ever get to floating... if it is... it's close enough for me. Dancing, for me, has always been more about the music and the movement than anything else. I guess it's always been about how much I love to dance, love the freedom of having an entire stage to myself, and having what I'm doing touch my soul. Those are the things I'll miss most.
Will I dance again? I'm sure I will at some point in time; most likely in the instance that we end up short handed due to call offs and such. Right now though, I'll be working in other areas of the club, as I'm more needed there than on stage.
While I'll miss dancing, this is most assuredly a welcome change. I'm excited and very thankful for the opportunity I've been given. I've been the Assistant Manager (or Dancer Manager) for a little over a year now, and have been at the club for almost 4 1/2 years. During that time I've had the chance to work with some of the most amazing girls I've ever met, and I still work with the greatest group of people ever. I'm happy to be able to hang up my dancing shoes, finally, and work in other areas of the club. It'll also be nice to be available to help the other staff members and my girls, who I love to death, any time they need me, since I won't be running around on and off stage, and in and out of dances.
Providing all my paperwork is done on time, I'll be able to go back to school in June, and a few years later have a degree and a career, good Lord willing. As much as I don't ever want to leave the club, since I feel so at home there, and I feel I do have a positive impact on the lives of so many of the people I work with; I know it will have to happen sometime in the future. Until then though, I hope this is the last club I ever work for and the last place I ever dance. It would be a perfect ending to the time I've spent in an industry that I've been involved with for 12 1/2 years now... and a place that will always give me thousands of happy memories to look back on when I finally 'turn the page' again.

Insomnia... again...

Originally posted on MySpace

01-25-2006

What is it about going to bed early, to actually get some sleep while it's night time, that wakes you up in the middle of the night, on a few hours sleep, wishing you could find just one Nytol? That so seriously sux. So, after 4 entire hours of quality sleep, lol, I've been sucked back into this black hole called 'myspace'. I feel like such an addict. LOL At least I've happened across a few people I haven't talked to in ages, which is pretty cool.
Nothin new in my backwards sort of world. My calf still hurts, as I pulled it lifting on Friday. That pain can end anytime and I won't complain. Perhaps I should lay off the hard core metal while I lift; it seems to have unhealthy consequenses. With any luck, if I'm able to walk about half normally, I'll be back at it again later today.
Can hardly wait for the superbowl! Go Steelers! Work is closed for the night, so I can actually glue myself to the tv, as will the rest of Pittsburgh I'm sure. You gotta love a town where businesses shut down when their team makes it to the superbowl. Sometime this week I'll have to make a run to Emporium II, in Charleroi, for some new Steelers gear.
Another random plug... Emporium II kicks ass! Ton's of Steelers gear... if you're looking for any other team paraphernalia tho, you may not wanna stop in there; the owner may shoot you on sight. LOL Just kidding. I don't think they even have anything with any other football team on it there anyway. The owner's a huge Steelers fan. Other than that, they have by far the coolest women's clothing and accessories anywhere. Completely cutting edge, and cheap. Blows the shit outta anything in the malls, even better than Charlotte Russe, and the prices are much better. You can also find all kinds of things there, where there is only one of that item in the whole store. So, if the size is right, it's much cooler than being one of 50 other people that bought the same exact thing... Blah. Also, there's a huge variety of awesome incense, not that crappy cheapo stuff. I usually have one of them burning here all the time. Damn, my whole house smells like it, but I like it.
Alright, enough ramblings for now. I'd love to have some coffee, and perhaps write something semi-meaningful, but more than that... I'd like to go back to bed before the sun comes up. So, that's a big no go.
As an end note, I've noted my background is missing... as is my website. Hmm. I'm assuming the storm in Somerset tonight has been bad enough that the web server is down, which is where my site is hosted... the site that contains my background. With any luck that'll be up sometime today. I don't like the idea of my website being down, so if it's not up later today I may call them. No biggie. It's never been down before, as they're pretty reliable, so I'll try not to let it affect my sleep. Oh, wait... I'm not getting any sleep. Damn. I'm probably good there then.

Never Let It Go...

Originally posted on MySpace

01-23-2006

This is by far my favorite Mushroomhead song. I'm not about to quote the entire cd. Not that it's not completely worthy of the effort, I just don't have that kind of time. So, beyond this little bit, you'll have to pick up their disks. I highly recommend them, more so the older cds than the newer ones, if you can find them.

"Never Let It Go" - Mushroomhead - Superbuick - 1996
"No, I'll never ever let it go. Caressing the down fall, Outstreched arms on your knees crawl. Filthy and feeling low, Dancing in the undertow. The cut that always bleeds but never shows. Everyone crawls to someone sometime. To the puppeteer we volunteer to become one. But who pulls the strings that you are attached to? Who pours the gas that you are the match to? Strive for perfection and strike with precision, Soon it blows up in your face and the smoke blurs your vision. But now you're fading fast, Maybe your time has passed, Bound and gagged as you're dragged to the typecast. Jumping back and forth and forth and back, Once more oblivious to what it is I'm looking for. Goodbye but I can not forget it. No, I'll never ever let it go."

Favorite Quotes

Originally posted on MySpace

01-23-2006

Some of my favorite quotes and such...
"Open up your mind and let some thought inside..." - Mushroomhead
"Put down that stone before you f*** up your glass house."... My take on an old classic.
"A rolling stone gathers no moss... A mossy stone gets stepped on and left behind." ... My take on another classic
"A old pot of leaded coffee is always better than a new pot of the unleaded crap"
"Decaffinated coffee is the work of the Devil!"
"We're just two lost souls swimmin' in a fish bowl, year after year... I wish you were here"... Pink Floyd

I might add more later, as I remember them.